This is why-- my mind is running all day. I think it's one of those side affects of full-time mommyhood. You know what I've found to be another side affect of full-time mommyhood? I find myself relating Blues Clues episodes to my everyday problems. I was just telling a friend that if Steve from Blues Clues is solving my biggest life mysteries, then my life must be pretty uncomplicated.
This brings me to what I wanted to post about. I've been feeling very uncomplicated lately. My days seem to pass in a predictable pattern and I've allowed it to bother me. I start daydreaming about returning back to work and all the 'important decisions' I would make in my business day... all of the thank you's I would get for doing a good job. Oh, and all the mani-pedi's I would have time to get during my lunch hours.
Then I got a reality check x 2. The first one occurred when I was driving home from one of Adelyn's classes. Adelyn randomly decided that she wanted to go to her grandma's house and NOT home. So she kicked and screamed and threw things at me until I was totally frazzled. As I walked in the door with Ella in tow, I quickly placed her in her Bumbo settled on the dining room table before carrying Adelyn to her room to change her diaper and put her down for an overdue nap. Then it happened. I could barely here a cry over Adelyn's screaming. It was a pain cry and it was coming from Ella in the other room. I turned the corner and found her on the tile floor. I can't even explain to you how freaked out I was that she had fallen out of her Bumbo onto the tile floor. Long story short: Ella is fine and suffered only a small bump on her head. But I cannot forget how stupid of a decision I made in a moment of distress.
A couple days later, I was picking up the playroom while Adelyn played and Ella got some tummy time. All of the sudden, I heard Ella start to gasp for air. She had found a small spongey toy (one of those capsules you put in warm water to expand into a shape-- in this case a Halloween monster) on the ground and decided to eat it. It was stuck in her throat and so I tried to sweep it out with my finger to no avail. Then I attempted the heimlick maneuver... to no avail. Then I put my finger back in her mouth with hopes that she would gag it up... to no avail. Finally, I called my neighbor to rush down and by the time she got to my house, Ella had swallowed the sponge. As though I wasn't already freaked out-- then I found red stuff that looked like blood coming from her mouth. I flipped out! Well, apparently it was just some of the non-poisonous
Phfewwww.... a couple of close calls this week that really put me in my place. It makes me wonder: how many of these little mistakes could have been made in the presence of someone else watching my child?! I don't know if I could live with myself knowing that someone other than myself was to blame for such silly decisions with such large affects. Trust me... after this week, I wanted to fire myself as a mommy. I deserved a written warning at the very least. :) In retrospect, though, I think this could have happened to anyone and I am so fortunate that at the least, it happened while I was there. I am SO fortunate for that. Further, these are the 'important decisions'.... much more important than anything I would ever accomplish at work.
Oh, and as a side note... I utilized the words of wisdom from none other than Steve on Blues Clues during both incidents mentioned above. "Stop, take a breath, and THINK!"
Awww... maybe life isn't so uncomplicated after all.
